baby carter 1.0

Since my wife contracted pregnancy... from me... it's been an awesome adventure.  As the arrival of my son or daughter comes closer, my heart has been filled with joy and fear and realizations.  Joyful of the moment when, God willing, our midwife let's me catch the baby, and I get to announce to the world whether it's a boy or girl... fear of my ability to care for a totally helpless human being, and realizations that as I age, my perspective rapidly changes.  

You may have seen this video .  A year ago, it wouldn't have pulled at me, but today life is different.  Today, I know that my child could come at any second and we could be in that situation.  Thinking about that stirs up a whirlwind of emotions in me, and rips me out of my seat.  Is everything ready?  Can we do this?  Are all the arrangements made?  What would happen to the baby?  Why haven't we set up the crib yet!?  

And in it all, I am learning more and more that Bethany and I, and our unborn child are in God's hands, in the shadow of His wings, no matter what that looks like.  And in the end, He wins. 

"And the peace of, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." ~Philippians 4:7